As if to emphasize the gloominess of the situation, it starts raining as soon as I start writing the title.
Last night, my sister, who was living at our old apartment, sent us siblings a message telling us that earlier there were people who were asking for her, because they were planning to impound my Dad’s car, a beat up 1980 Toyota Corona.
I remember during the last few months of Arroyo’s term, I thought, I wish that she had more time. More time to continue her projects. More time to guide the country on to a stable path. More time to execute a well-thought developmental plan.
Then the next president came along, and it seemed apparent that his first order of business was to revamp everything, and remove anything that was connected to Arroyo. Aquino was not the candidate I voted for in that election, but I remember during the last few months of his term, I also thought that, okay, maybe it might have been beneficial if he still had time to continue what he had planned for the country. But, all things are bound to end, and I was ready then for a change in leadership.
And then came Duterte.
Yesterday, I read the tragic news that you had died. Suddenly, it was as if almost every news page on Facebook was showing your picture, expressing their condolences.
Even now, I still can’t believe that just like that, you’re gone. I never knew you personally, of course. But somehow I can’t help but be filled with frustration, whenever I recall the circumstances that led to your death.
Hindi ko sinasabing madaming bulag na panatiko sa social media, pero parang ganun na nga.
I was changing my baby’s diaper a few minutes ago, when from out of the blue she just stares at the light coming from the other room and blurts out “Lola” (Filipino word for grandmother). I asked her where and she points out towards the direction of the light.
It’s never an easy feeling, knowing what’s wrong and yet also knowing that you have no power to make it all better.
Your heart starts to beat faster, your breathing becomes heavier, your eyes start to water, and your mind starts to go blank.